A Tired soul

My soul is absolutely exhausted right now. I am not ashamed to admit it. It isn't about any one specific thing, it is about a hundred specific things going on at once and it seems as if it will never end. Having faith sure isn't as easy as it sounds. Having trust sure isn't as easy as it sounds. I wish that I could just pick up some faith and trust on the way home from the grocery store and put it in my car and not need to go back for awhile. It is a daily thing! Argh! I keep praying and keep looking to God the same.

Right now there is a storm approaching. Brent just called me to let me know it is headed my way. It's that kind of weather where you start second-guessing everything that you wanted to do that afternoon. "Should I go out to the store?" or "Should I stay home where I know I will be safe?" or "Will I be safe at home? Is it going to be a bad one?" It reminded me of that feeling you get during those tough times when it is so hard to know the answers to everything and every decision has so many pros and cons that nothing seems certain.

Job 37:14-18
“Pay attention to this, Job.
Stop and consider the wonderful miracles of God!
Do you know how God controls the storm
and causes the lightning to flash from his clouds?
Do you understand how he moves the clouds
with wonderful perfection and skill?
When you are sweltering in your clothes
and the south wind dies down and everything is still,
he makes the skies reflect the heat like a bronze mirror.
Can you do that?"